I feel like getting in touch with the readers…not biblically mind you (well…nevermind). So go ahead and read the previous post then ask me a question or a few. I’ll be answering all week. Give me some good stuff ya’ll.

“The beginning of knowledge is the discovery of something we do not understand.”
Frank Herbert (1920 - 1986)

So I’ve been thinking…again. Having been presented with various things since last week. I can’t help, but consider the nature of myself and my life. Mind you I’ll try not to think so much that I never do anything, however I find it hard not to take some time and just…contemplate. Hell when I write these posts I spend a large portion of time just thinking about if I’ve spelled all the words correctly so imagine when it comes to life altering events. I officially can do without my job. I’ve taken 4 days off since last week. I plan to take a vacation as soon as possible. I’ve been helping some folks write a grant and if it comes through that’s my next job. Other than that I’ve thought about marriage, children, growing old (and I don’t mean I’ll be 28 this year old, but when I’m 60 old). Why the hell would the Ravens sign Jamal Lewis AND Mike Anderson? Before I start to seem cool or mature I’ll let the geek out and admit that I’ve been playing Star Wars Galaxies as well. What!?!? Ya’ll know I’m a geek. Just cause I dance, rhyme, and can drink Irish Car Bombs like a frat boy doesn’t cancel out the geek in me. I like it too so there. Perhaps I never shared this, but I don’t really have thick skin. When I was a kid it was obvious, I was the one that would start crying and then beat you up…badly. As I grew I just developed a stone face and quick wit. The truth is things still get to me and I’m trying to work on that. I can stay calm I can be rational and I can improvise very well. My problem is when I get all alone I start thinking too much about things. Why can’t people be honest? Why do they feel the need to spite? As naive as it sounds why can’t folks just be nice? As much as I know and understand things like this escape me. What’s easy for me is much more difficult for others. I just never understand why. To quote Digable Planets, “I’m just a baby man.” I need to stop thinking about some of this stuff. It doesn’t even fit with my view. I’m good at not letting things move me in the moment, it’s just after the moment when I tend dwell. ‘Geek quote’ It’s like I’m trolling forums in myself, stirring up internal drama. I need an inner moderator to calm things down some. Ahh the hell with it, how are you guys?