I am…
“These crimes of illusion are fooling us all. And now I am weary and I feel like I do. It’s only you who can tell me apart And it’s only you who can turn my wooden heart.”
Portishead - Only You
Cold…
Tired…
Bored…
Hating the bus…
In need of a vacation…
Working for the weekend…
Surrounded by people and still alone…
Missing what it feels like to “have” a woman…
Trying to find a woman that is sane enough to associate with…
Considering having something to bring all of my friends together at least for a day…
Wondering who I know reads this stuff that I don’t know about and thinks differently about me though they’ll never say…
Realizing that even though I will never be big on the Hip-Hop scene I still want to put out an album and get my music to people who will dig it…
Trying to think of another way to make money because these grants suck and I’m tired of wondering every year if they’ll be renewed or if I’ll have to find another job…
Thinking about ramping up my wardrobe once again even though I’m only really dressing for myself these days, but fuck it I want to do my thing…
Realizing that even though I can put this money up I shouldn’t buy a car until I know the status of next years grant…
Going to buy an Xbox 360 because I can and I don’t give a damn about the cost…
Craving a Martini even though I have never had one before…
Wondering if I should have less lattes…
Wishing I had a camera…
In my 29th year…
Drained…
Silent…
Tired..
Cold…
God.
What a post.
re lattes
yes
re martinis
yes
re xbox
abso-f-ing-lutely
Comment by GC — March 22, 2007 @ 3:24 am
It’s a good thing to be introspective. It’s amazing that you’re so self aware at 29. I’d like to see a post on the good things in your life.
I say get a Wii. (I’m a Zelda fan)
Comment by jali — March 22, 2007 @ 12:42 pm
I am…
hoping your introspection leads you to some much deserved inner peace…
I am…
confident that rounding up your friends for a day will help you feel less tired, drained and cold. What ya waiting for?!
Lastly,
I am…
with jali..The WII is infinetely better than the 360
Comment by dragonflypurity — March 22, 2007 @ 7:31 pm
i often wonder how the hell the surrounded by people but still alone thing happens. i experience it all the time but it still boggles me as to why exactly it happens
Comment by jdid — March 22, 2007 @ 9:34 pm
Can I come over and play your X Box 360?
I feel you on the first two. I am those things as well.
Comment by Miz JJ — March 23, 2007 @ 3:33 pm
I
am reading
this as I drink
a glass of red wine…
Will that effect my judgement
before I have finished
the entire essay
or am I doomed
to not know…
Comment by Gina — March 24, 2007 @ 7:57 pm
Sorry…that is my g rated blog…
Comment by Gina — March 24, 2007 @ 7:58 pm
first time here..i’m a part of that club..people all around, most I love and I’m still lonely..guess it could be worse I could hate them all, right? so there’s hope.
Comment by geegee — March 24, 2007 @ 11:53 pm