“These are mediocre times, people are starting to lose hope. It’s hard for many people to believe that there are extraordinary things inside themselves, as well as others. I hope you can keep an open mind.”
M.Night Shyamalan via Mr. Glass
Kujichagulia (Self Determination) - To define and name ourselves. To create and speak for ourselves, instead of having others defining, or determining our paths or selves.
The world is hell. Denying it is pretty hard. Turmoil and suffering are everywhere. People are in pain. Even the places I find joy are surrounded by some insanity. This morning there was a “crazy dude” singing on Eutaw and Baltimore. You’ve seen these people…most of us avoid them. I couldn’t help but smile though. This cat could sing and it made me feel good. From a block away he was still louder than the music coming from the speakers of the Starbucks I stood in front of. People still avoided him, but I thought “Money can blow”. I was talking with the roomie the other night and mentioned how despite failures of the past I have to believe that there is something ahead. Many times I thought I had found what was mine…in various aspects of my life. But when things fell apart I despaired. Now I understand I did find something that was mine. It was my lesson. These are the things I’ll carry with me when I do move on. This is how I’ll know what not to do. Simply stated I’m too stubborn to fail or fade into obscurity. I can’t sit with mediocrity. In reality none of us should be willing too. Every thing in life can be boiled down to concentration and focus. Once my aim is sure everything else will fall into place. Rather I’ll put it into place. I never believed in things happening because it’s fate. I’m more of a “fate is a door” type of person…you gotta step through it and all that jazz. It is our inaction that leaves us in the hands of others. I know that many of us just aren’t sure which direction to turn to. I myself considered finding a priviledged, white sugar mommy to fund my materialistic instincts. But I wouldn’t be happy…my bills would just be paid. Johnny Cash once said, “Being rich means money is the only thing you don’t have to worry about.” It’s those other things that really bother me. That’s what I need to work on. I’ve witnessed extraordinary things and I will again. I’ve done some and as special as I think I am…I know you all have something in you as well. I see the extraordinary in you.
Why a white sugar mommy? Why not a black one?
Aside from that, we seem to be having similar thoughts. I’ve spent the day curled up with them, considering how to make some professional choices also be financially successful. I got tired of focusing on that, began to hear the call of Yemaya and started planning my annual November (birthday month) trip to nourish the soul. Alas, next November is very very far away right now and last November is not close enough.
I tend to ignore horoscopes, but can’t help but hear over and over again that Sagittarians like to travel, are restless, and today I was told that we like the colors red, yellow and orange (while sitting surrounded by lots of reds, yellow and oranges, and asking a friend to bring me some fabric in these colors from Morocco) - so maybe I shouldn’t dismiss it entirely?
Back to concentration and focus….
Comment by axeoxala — April 18, 2007 @ 9:29 pm
Gosh I could’ve wrote this. I’m at such a crossroad in my life- follow a dream or secure a future or keeping hoping the passion in my life will pay my bills??..I’m on the fence about everything in my life and I know as soon as I take action (on something, anything) everything will fall into place but I’m frozen..
This is so true; “It is our inaction that leaves us in the hands of others. ” I need a deep, solid push..a shove towards the unknown and have faith that it will be as good or better than what I could’ve ever dreamed possible for me…It will come to you as well.
Comment by geegee — April 18, 2007 @ 11:55 pm
your posts always make me think. thats what i like.
my attitude is the stuff thats supposed to happen happens. we may not like where we are but you’re there for a purpose and you’ll take a lesson from it. never give up, bend never break
Comment by jdid — April 19, 2007 @ 3:28 pm
Leaving me to go off into the weekend with food for thought. I’m truly feeling this post Lion. Have a great one. “Being rich means money is the only thing you don’t have to worry about.” Damn, that’s a statement in a 1/2 right there brah.
Comment by Luke Cage — April 20, 2007 @ 3:40 pm
It’s not an easy ride this life thing, you think you know where you are heading and oops … you take a wrong turn. It’s funny how as kids we yearn to be adults, and as adults we realize it isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. But damn, it sure is worth living, the good, the bad, and the ugly.
Comment by Eslocura — April 20, 2007 @ 7:16 pm
Another good post, guy! I always learn something here.
Comment by jali — April 23, 2007 @ 1:28 pm
Nice post.
Comment by Blah Blah Blah — April 23, 2007 @ 4:45 pm